don’t wanna be your favorite // i need to be your only

would hide away a hundred years // if i thought it’d make me less lonely

what grand scheme do you hide inside // i’m already forgetting your name

in control don’t lose your nerve // you choose the rules of the game

made me wait for far too long // rose quartz heart encased in resin

your ego that dark stifling hand // clutched cruelly over affection

keep those eyes from my garden // flowers wilt under seething envy

manage to be careless enough // and i’ll forget to treat you gently

we weren’t meant to be this way // i never thought i’d have to say

why spare me when it means you die // because it’s you and you know why

what’s it really mean when you hesitate // you know i can’t resist good bait

we both know how it feels inside // i’ll count out while you run and hide

what shark has caught a whiff of blood // i drank your wine it tastes of mud

i sense anger in the falling rain // why must growth begin with pain

i think my demons got their way // when you said i shouldn’t stay

i’m trembling but i’m not surprised // i’m painted green by all the lies

-R.V.